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Good morning.
I broke my 48 hour fast at 28 hours.
GET THIS,
It was at 2:30 AM on a bowl of mother fucking cereal. Lucky charms, to be exact.
All thanks to my big sister (whom I love, but c'mon.)
Not fasting today, the boyfriend and I will be together. Want to know something funny? I tell him a little too much sometimes. He seriously knows too much about this, and it weirds me out. He can be a total jerk though, so I just don't even know anymore.
Time to play it old school.
b-80
l-280
s-0
d-tba
Okay, what's your take on this whole Twilight shit? I haven't seen the movie, nor read the books for that matter, but everyone is crazy obsessed. It doesn't appeal to me at all, I just want to know why people get their panties tied up in a wad for Rob. Just curious, is all.
Have a lovely day.
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Alright, I'm tired of my 'depression' getting in the way of everything. I'm going to lose weight. And I don't care how many people I have to lie to in order to get there.
It's fast time.
For once in a long time, I'm motivated.
If you care to join, I would be eternally grateful.
Oh, that reminds me- I have a few movie suggestions for anyone interested, or trying to keep themselves busy.
-Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind.
-Fight Club
Both are very very odd, but if you have a weird perspective towards life such as I, then go for it.
A few summers ago, I was in 2 academy type programs, if you know of any, let me know, kay?
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strength is beautiful.
Edit.
Good Morning, at least where I come from.
My friend wants to take me out to lunch and wants me to tell him all about my 'story'. Meaning, all my years through depression and ed and all that jazz.
I'll just ignore it for now.
My mom wants me to go to church, although I'm an atheist.
I'm such a screwball.
Support.
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Being strong has never been so hard.
I am so sorry that I have not updated since before school ended. Since then, I'm losing it. I have to go to therapy for depression, and taking medication, and I really hate to admit this, but none of it is really helping.
I'm still with my boyfriend. He might be getting better, but I can't really tell, it might just all be in my head.
Food and me are not getting along.
It's summer, and I am always my strongest in the summer. Always. Why is this time becoming difficult?
My aunt, uncle, and cousin came to visit me the other weekend, and my aunt said to me,"You look really great. You're not skin and bones anymore, you are at a healthy, fit weight." Now, the average person might take this as a compliment, but I lost it.
I ate today.
I'm going to update this more often. I really, truly will.
Comment dears, and have a strong day.
EDIT
food is bad bad bad bad.
and my boyfriend confuses the hell out of me.
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i hate today, officially.
my boyfriend is just the worst person in the world to me right now. but i'm too scared to do anything about it, because then he'll make it seem like everything was my fault.
b-0
l-0
s-0
d-tba.
dinner should be a joy.
i'm reading the best little girl in the world. you guys should really really read it.
today has been horrible, i feel like i don't know anyone anymore. they're all fake. i just want to be by people who are real.
stay strong, always.
edit (for thursday)
i'll post a new one tomorrow, and comment you all back. you guys have made my day better. : )
today has been stupid. i hate being pushed around and having no time to do the things i need to do.
i hate having to always make everyone around me happy.
: /
talk to you guys tomorrow.
love.
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well, i'm off to see one of my close guy friends.
all of my friends laugh because i'm closer to guys than i am girls. my boyfriend hates this. then again, all of my friends think i'm in an abusive relationship with my boyfriend and shouldn't care what he thinks. so i just don't even know what to believe.
i went to my therapist today. yay, wahoo! (that's sarcasm. i use a lot of it.) i hate how i lie to her every single time i see her. but, it's just the way it works with me.
i haven't eaten much, so that's keeping me happy. except, i have a headache. so, that's not making me happy.
think i can lose 4 pounds by next monday? i'm trying to set goals, but i think i just want the weight off.
111 pounds.
sick.
i didn't get that many comments yesterday, and that made me sad, but hey, it's cool. those who did, i am eternally grateful. :)
have a nice day, ladies and gentlemen.
edit-
my boyfriend is a dick. i don't even know why i'm still with him. i'm scared, that's probably it. i'm really outgoing, but i'm always scared to death.
i ate a bagel and purged it.
bad, bad, habit that i am not getting into again.
fasting is a beautiful thing, isn't it?
good luck, everyone.
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